December 20

You are not crazy... and you are definitely not driving me nuts. Far, far, far from the truth.I wish you could get the words to come out right, that you could pinpoint what you're feeling and explain it to me. But I'm glad that you sent me this, at least it makes me feel a little bit better.

But I don't want you to have to hide these things from me. They don't annoy me whatsoever. I need to know that you feel all right for me to feel the same way. I need you. You are part of me; you are part of how I feel, what I do, everything about me.

I'm sorry... it kills me that I can't be there for you. Every day, every night I wonder why.I always remember, eventually, that you love me. And that I love you too... please just know that. I love you, Kathleen. I don't know what's going to happen to me. I don't know what other things are going to happen in my life. In every situation, though, I know that I will love you. Every day I feel it more and more. Every day I realize how lucky I am to have you, because you make me more like Adam Lukach than anyone else ever has. You won't ever lose me. I love you now and I always will.

Forever yours,
Adam

P.S. I mean everything I said. I really do. I can't lose you again...Talk to you today, I guess it is now. Only 5 more. =)